Full Tilt Retreat

I have been turned down for the Saltonstall Retreat Again. I am apparently not good enough. That's how I feel, rejected (again). I can only make my own retreats until I get accepted somewhere. Retreating is important to me. It allows me to focus on my creative work and set aside daily concerns. But I am very busy right now attempting to move, sell the house, get divorced, and so on--so my retreats are full tilt retreats, on the run.